Puzzled

I constantly feel like I need to "turn my life around". I honestly don't even know what that means, but I can't extinguish the feeling. What needs to change? I could come up with an endless list, but I doubt any of those actions will satiate my hunger for progression. I don't even know what kind of progression we're talking about here.
I get home and feel like I need to clean my room, big time. I walk into my room and it's clean. Is there a word for that? What would you call it?

At all hours of the day I feel so completely disorganized, unproductive, wasteful, and over analytical. I feel that instead of doing one thing, I could be doing another. When I go to do that other thing, I feel as if that's not the right activity, and that I need to move on to something else. Backwards logic? Is it the Eastern European in me? That was distasteful.

What do I need to do that's so damn urgent?

• Edit "Car Trouble"
• Production Design homework
• Write my feature
• Shoot my Directing 1 project

I am gaffing a shoot for the next four days. I am 1st ADing another shoot for two days immediately following the gaffing gig. The next weekend I am 1st ACing another shoot for a couple of days. I am DPing another shoot immediately following that. Somewhere in there is my Directing 1 shoot. I'm also about to get a buttload of UPM homework after tomorrow.

I know I'm forgetting some stuff, and though I love being here, all I can think about is going home for Christmas.